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last entries ever . . .

2006-03-03T03:24:00.000+08:00

LettinG some1 u love Go . . .
loSted . . . i wont love again . . .
i wont . . .
i always Put in 100% . . . .
i nv let them Down . . . .
But they alwayS let me Down . . . .
Promise are mend to be brokEn?
Nothing is forever?
nothinG last?

I experienced all tis . . . .
i fall For first . . .
i fall for seCond . . .
will theRe be a third wan???
iam enough of everytin . . .

saying i wont cry,
is the biggest lie . . . .

iam speechless. . .
iam alwaYs the one lefted ouT . . .
my last blog entries>?
i juX duno . . .

when out For coffee wif My frenz . .
saw fishy . . . .
walked home . . . .
the nite i can hav some peace . . . .
all wif fren around . . .
is fun . . . .
for tat moment . . . .
once i reached home . . .
iam alone again . . . .

i Duno y?
i dun understand . . . .
i wont love . . .
u teached me . . .

NothiNG muCh . . . everytin juX ended . . . . .
is areadi the past . . .
is areadi gone . . .
i cant hav it back . . .
BRoken . ..

cried becuZ u are sad???
i areadi reached a level of sadness . . .
till my feelings is gone . . .
till my tears stopped . . .

i wont Go back . . .
i won go back . . .

u left me here. . . .
unwanted . . .

T_T
iT alwayS ended wif tears .
BUt nothing else . . . .

there is onli sadness, but no love . . .
so stay away from me . . . .

the truth always hurts . . .

2006-03-01T22:44:00.000+08:00

The first Day of the Month,
we walked past ONe moNth of life Together . . .

ThingS are changinG,
is always veri sweet at first . . .
Duno y thing jammed up or wat,
upon reaching the end of the month . . .
perhaps is fate . . .

Iam weak,
weak to Think OF anytin . . .
even wat hav happened . .
i pretened nothing hav happened . . .
N noW, if u ask me wat happened,
i DUn hav an Ans,
CuZ i jUX forgotten everytin . . . .

i Dun even noe,
wat hav bring us to tis state . . .
I NOe u lose FeelinG For me,
Jeff, peiqin, perhaps alot. . .
aLL tolD me . . . .
Is the Fact, BUt is always HUrtinG .. . .
PERhAps, iam not good enough .. .
tat all i can say . . .

SpeeChless For wat Dear hav Done . . . .
letting her live her life by her own . . . .
Yet, it turns out to be seven Lines wif blooD . . .

no lonG ago was Toking to HEr on PHone . . .
she Sounds Ok, she still can luagh,
still can tel my storys Of her life,
AS usual . . . . . .

But i noe, she is nV happi . . .
But she is trying to be . . . . . .Thx her . . .
i Dun understand her well . . .
i noe she dun like the nagging,
buT i still Do so . . . . i Duno y . . .
maybe i cared too much . . .

She said let time pass,
she said is meaningless,
she said she wont wan to break,

i just wan to say sorrie, i dun understand u,
i duno wat u wan . . . .

will BE contiuned - taking advise FRom kelVIn -

Chapter 2

Haix, the ans is the same . . .
losinG feeliNG=dun love
letting time pass=jUX to reduce the pain
meaningless=no interest . . . .

PerHaps all the Ans Lies on u . . .

I duno wat to Do . . . .

u Cut urself,
u dun even love urself,
So, Do u HAv tHe RighT TO saY u Love Me?

iS hard, is painful . ..

i Reali Duno . . .

I dun wan a LIfe like Tat

I will LET U GO . . . .

PLS Dun hurt uRself Le . . . .

jUX WaiT, 4 me to buck Up my Courage . . .
for tat SiMple word u are waiting For . . . .
iam sorrie, my broken promISe . . . . .
I dun wan too . . .
i Dun own u an explainnation too . . .
CuZ Everytin liEs on U . . . .
U should noe better . . . .
Iam juX sorrie . . . . .

Nothing is forever?
i Duno, i nid peace . . .

T_T

ME

2006-02-28T21:43:00.000+08:00

Here writing my StorY again . . .
in life, there is alwaYs up and down . . .
haPPi moments N sad moments . . .
TIs is LIfe . . . whiCh all of us is facing . . .
sometimes is Hard, bt we hav no choice but to face it . . .
everyday writing the same thing same problem . . .
i Dun nid to write everytin, but some feelinGs . . .

yes, iam still sad . . .
still the same . . .
i noE she dun love me anymore,
but she is still staying wif me . . .

i duno Y . . . But i NOe,
she still cares . . . . .
i dun wish to say anytin,
dun wish to tok . . .
dun wish to eat anytin either . . .
i Onli nid some peace . . .
mAybe some frenz . . .
By my side, listenINgs, accompany me . . .

i Like The NighT everyday . . .
filled with darkness . . .
the freshness of the air . . .
the BlowINg winD,
going in the direction Of it choice . . .

Iam still loSt . . .

But one thing iam clear if. . .
faMily are the one Who cares Most . .
who will nv leave u,
no matter wat . . .
they are the ones,
who will be by uR side,
whenever u NId them . . . .

iam nV haPpi,
when i noe,
ur hearts dun belong to me . . .
my hearts Is broKen,
cuZ i noE,
i will Be alone . . . .
i will be in a state . . .
where i cant find happiness . . .

iam walkinG the olD path, i used to, in the past . . . .

perhaps, tats life . . . .

Feel like Going out for Coffee . . .
*walked away*
T_T

sad

2006-02-27T21:50:00.000+08:00

Spended So mUCh time ON tis BLog . . .

wanted Some1 to admireS my first blog ever. . .

wasted my My effORt . . .

iam AlVIn . . .

I wont CrY . . .

holDing all tears in me . . .

looking at the furture . . .

i still hav my family . . .

-Maybe AIm not worth ur trust-
-even u DUn trust me-

Is sad to NOe sumtinG truth . . . .
but i rather hear the truth, then being hided from it . . .

I wont wait ,
for a gal,
who had no feeling for me,
cuz i noe the day will nv come . . .
N i noe, cuZ i hav tried . . .

i wont wait,
livinG my life,
HOpiNG she will be back,
cuZ i noe i DUn fit to own her,
N i noe, cuZ i Useless . . . .

iam sad,
iam disapointed,
iam weak,
iam useless,
iam unwanted,

But i wont Cry . . .

N IAm DEEPLY SORRIE FOR WAT I HAV DONE, TO MAKE U UNHAPPI...
I DUN MEAN IT~!~! - u dun trust me enough For everytin, if u did, thing would nv be like tat -

nV regreted loving u . . . .
u are once n forever in me .. .
Chen Jin YonG You nI . . .

u are my fIrst, my 100% ever . . . .

i willl be Me .. . living . . on . . . after my last piece of blog . ..
shoUld i delete the blog? or kiP tis meanless BLoG?

T_T

THinkinG, first Time writinG a blog . .

2006-02-26T00:35:00.000+08:00

hi all, thanks for visiting ~! ^^ wahahahaha

Today wake Up at 11+am . . . cuZ yesterday doiNg this blog tIll bout 5am . . .
spended so muCh time doing . ... enjoyed alot . . . DOinG this blog . . . .

As usual, i woke up . . . ON my computer again, then talk to some friends, then contiune my blog again . . ..
then i sms dear, then talk to my mei oso . . .

doing all the blog stuff, then time like flys away le . . . . bout 3+pm still doing , then realise that i never eaten anytin . . . Dont know why i also not hungry at all . . - maYbe i THink to MuCh, or i busying with my Blog le . .

Until my parent came back[4pm] . . . come my room talk to me . . . then i one ear in one ear out lo . . .
that time my blog almost really le.. choosing the background song, then Keep pestering peiqin to listen Nice anot . .. wahahaha . . . . then I go Bathe le . . . End of chapter . . . hee ^^

Contiuned- chapter 2

After i BAthe hao, then i lie Down on my Bed, toking to frens again . . . and lookinG at My verY first MAster Pieces . .
spended so mani hours doing . . . just Want dear To see my Blog . . . . then tis time think she jUX woke up[5pm] . . . . .
then Tok abIt, she say going back to xingnan . . then i say i going for my lesson le . . .
Just recived her calls juX now . . . she sounded happi, abit scared ooso . . take care wor dear.~!~!
sorri, i so late cant go out pei u . . . . . .

Actualli i eat le, before going for lesson . . . fish porridge . . . then late for lesson . . . then teacher still wan treat mE mcdonal . . . CuZ i passed My grade five thoery . . but i eat le... so save for next week . . . wahahaha [ so good ]
THen then yuYAng HOr, verI veri veri irritating, keep ask me to let him play my computer . . .

as usual, sat family gathering . . . . all people at my house. . .. Thanks God, my aH gong is ok le . . . HealthY~!~!
then all after eating, sit togther tok tok . . . then i gone craZy tok alot funni things . . . .then My best frenz, cerlyn and april come find me . . . for the Emd tickets stuff . . . haha miSs u all . . .~! ^^

about 9pm . . . . tHinking oF my dear . . . . i so bad . . . make her sad . . . misunderstand her sentence s . . . plus i mood swing . . . then . .. .. . HOpe will be Fine soon . . . HAted jeff For betrayinG me . . . BuT after thinking, suan le, he got his diffculty . . . . sometime is better jUX to open one eye and close one eyes . . . .

Time juX flys . . . when all people is gone . .. iam hungry le . . . so when to buy mac eat , wif brother and jiejie . . .
then go home, watCh tV- nice sia . . . . . then sms cerlyn, then dear call again lo . .. . talk talk awhile then hang le . . . Reali Miss u . . . MissIng some1 u like is alSo a happiness . . . . i understand ur sentences le . . . Tat y i hAve time to Miss u now . . . . . hee ^^

wahaha . . . Life is alwaYs filled wif alot of surpises . . . Tml awaits . . .
NOw tokING to frens again online . . . .
cant slp . . . but will try to slp . . . this is my Life . ..

Th .e. Nd

2006-02-25T04:28:00.000+08:00

Today, created My first bloG ever,
BUtblog onlY half done. . .

happi becuZ of something,

sad oso becuZ sometHing,

sometime in life,
what appears to be the end,
is really a new beginnings . . .

so late le . . .

Dun wish to mentiOn anything . . .

yawn yawn . . . Zzzzzzzzz